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    What Remains When “You” Drop Away?

    • calendar_today May 17th, 2026

    “You” can’t trust this moment
and also, there’s only trust. A Friday Zen live on the nature of pure trust, why the separate self can never surrender, the second arrow that never landed, and the old man who took the longest dump in trail bathroom history. 😂 

     

    Topics and Timecodes:

    0:00 Welcome — You Can’t Trust This (MC Hammer Was Right)

    0:36 The Separate Self Can Never Truly Surrender

    1:36 Zubin as Dancing Light on a Screen

    3:01 There’s Only Trust — When the Self Drops

    4:13 Pure Trust as the Fabric of Everything

    4:58 The Bathroom Story: Pee, Abdominal Spasm, and the Second Arrow

    7:26 No Second Arrow — But the First One Still Hurts

    8:34 What Else Could It Be? — The Nature of Pure Trust

    9:39 Was the Trust Rewarded? You Can’t Even Ask That.

    10:03 The Unicorn Is Real — Labels Are This Arising as Labels

    11:41 How Is This Different From Faith?

    12:50

    No Belief, No Faith — Just This

    13:29

    The Flow of Trust vs. The Struggle of Pushing and Pulling

    14:44 Dream Is Dream All the Way Down (Inception Was Right)

    14:53 Trust Is Meaningless Without Subject and Object — Sylvia’s Point

    16:03 Peeing in the Forest While Old Man Withers Rides Away

    17:06 All Analogies Fail — Including Trust 17:54

    Awakening Is More or Less When the You Drops

    18:49 You’re Dead — And This Is What After Death Looks Like

    20:14 This Trust Is Unconditional Love

    21:02

    Trying to Conceptualize Objective Reality

    21:37 Confidence and Hope Are Rooted in Trust — But That’s Not This 22:27 Am I AI? (Probably. Also, You Blink Less.)

    23:26 Most of Spirituality Is Play Acting at Awakening

    24:19 Why Does Zubin Keep Making Videos?

    25:13 Trust Me — Be Careful With That

    26:01 It’s So Dog-F**king Ordinary

    27:10 Sweet Dreams Are Made of This (Eurythmics Had It)

    28:02 No One Making Choices — Just Choicing

    28:33 All Regret, All Guilt — Goes Poof

    30:05

    Why Are We Here? Because We’re Here. Roll the Bones.

    31:33 How Much Is Zubin Wearing the Mask?

    33:47 Why Is This Redundant? Because That’s What’s Happening.

    35:01 Even the Resistance to Making Videos Is Gone

    36:33 No Center to Own the Compliment — And That’s a Relief

    37:28 The Buddha Shows Up — “Shut the F**k Up, B. Diddy”

    38:33 Meditation Arises for the Same Reason Videos Arise — Trust

    40:06 Spirituality’s Problem: It’s Selling Seeking

    42:22 Lord of the Rings and the Mines of Moria

    43:55 Non-Dual Teachers Are Appearing as Part of the Trust

    45:04 I Am He as You Are He as We Are All Together — Lennon

    45:44 Staring at Construction Debris at the Retreat — In Love With It

    47:47 The Void and Why the Mind Hates It

    50:08 Nihilism Is Also a Contrivance

    53:17 The Snake Sucking Its Own Snake Dick — An Infinite Loop

    54:54 Advice for a Vipassana Retreat: Pure Silence

    56:29 Nowhere to Land — The Dark Night of Nihilism

    57:19 Nothing Really Matters Doesn’t Matter Either

    58:11 Wrap-Up, Pork Chops on the New Weber, and Peace Out

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