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    Ex-Hindu Monk On The Utter Failure Of Spiritual Seeking (w/ Tobias Ricardo)

    • calendar_today October 12th, 2026

    Tobias Ricardo⁠ spent 15 years as a Hindu monk and had pretty much every spiritual experience on the menu: kundalini fireworks, blissed-out “I am” states, retreats, the works. The real freedom turned out to be seeing that all of it was happening to and for a “me” who was never actually there. If you’ve had glimpses that never seem to stick, and you keep thinking you just need one more retreat, maybe check this conversation out 😉

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    Check out his YouTube channel, The Unknowable This!

    Timecodes and topics:

    0:00 Welcome and the frustration of seeking
    2:02 A collapse into unknowing, not a journey
    4:26 What the seeker thinks Tobias did right
    8:46 The tornado and the iron filings
    12:07 Impersonal seeing and the trouble with attainment
    17:17 Why this is not nihilism
    19:15 Unconditional love and radical perfection
    22:21 Pain without a sufferer
    24:56 Is therapy or inner work wrong
    27:45 Did Tony Parsons and Jim Newman cause it
    31:00 Chasing mystical experiences
    34:26 Hearing my old interviews and the heaviness of the seeker
    37:40 Co-celebrants and the body relaxing
    41:03 The monk who never got angry
    46:50 The descriptive versus prescriptive fallacy
    48:10 Perfect in its hopelessness
    51:24 Kundalini, the beach at 4 a.m., and the man made of salt
    57:51 Why the story of awakening is only a story
    1:02:12 What is the use of sitting with a speaker
    1:06:31 Why nobody can give you what is already this
    1:10:28 No such thing as real
    1:13:52 Nothing is happening in a location
    1:16:01 Death and the macrocosmic orgasm
    1:20:09 5-MeO-DMT and the mimic
    1:23:46 Always playtime
    1:24:38 Goodbye and the Sunday Zoom

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