What happens when the mind stops telling stories? We explore insomnia and radical acceptance, the trap of identifying as awareness, why “the world is waking up” is just another story, and my journey from Doc Vader to whatever the f**k this is 😂

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Topics and Timecodes:

⁠0:00⁠ – Going Live & Technical Difficulties ⁠

1:26⁠ – When You Can’t Say Anything Anymore ⁠

2:31⁠ – Karma Yoga: Life as Sacred Practice ⁠

4:14⁠ – Sleep, Insomnia & Radical Acceptance ⁠

7:02⁠ – Sleep During Awakening: My Experience ⁠

8:38⁠ – Waking Up at Night: Working with Panic & Repressed Emotion ⁠1

0:24⁠ – No Distinction Between Waking, Dreaming & Deep Sleep ⁠

11:43⁠ – The Mind Creates Reality: Manifestation & Reconditioning ⁠1

3:29⁠ – Free Will, Determinism & Letting Go ⁠1

3:53⁠ – Dreams, Vivid Experiences & Higher Planes ⁠1

5:00⁠ – When Desire & Attachment Start to Fall Away ⁠

16:03⁠ – Meaning Is Created: An Existentialist View ⁠

17:01⁠ – Watching Thoughts: The Mirage of the Mind

⁠19:02⁠ – Who Thought This Thought? The House of Cards Collapses ⁠2

1:04⁠ – The “I Want to Wake Up” Trap ⁠

21:52⁠ – Who Is Awareness Appearing To? ⁠

22:17⁠ – Getting Stuck at “I Am Awareness” ⁠

23:04⁠ – What Is the Unborn? ⁠2

5:00⁠ – Wide Angle Camera Fun (Tech Break) ⁠

26:04⁠ – The Universe Is Unfolding As It Should ⁠

26:31⁠ – Absolute vs. Relative: There’s No Distinction ⁠

27:25⁠ – From Doc Vader to This: My Journey Since 2019 ⁠

30:35⁠ – Burning It All Down: Deleting Twitter, Losing Followers, Finding Joy ⁠

31:05⁠ – Gratitude for Spiritual Friends: Angelo, Simon, Ishwar ⁠

32:03⁠ – When Suffering Arises After Awakening ⁠

33:31⁠ – Resilience Is a Story: Working with Negativity ⁠

34:06⁠ – Processing Emotions About Iran & the Ayatollah ⁠

36:07⁠ – Letting Things Be Unsticky Even When You Care Fully ⁠3

6:36⁠ – Talking to Conservative Christian Parents About Buddhism ⁠

37:28⁠ – All Paths Point to the Same Thing ⁠

40:25⁠ – Jesus Was Enlightened ⁠

41:13⁠ – Identifying as Awareness vs. Non-Duality: What’s Beyond? ⁠

43:05⁠ – Resurrecting Jesus by Adyashanti (Book Recommendation) ⁠

43:42⁠ – Is the World Waking Up? (Spoiler: It’s a Story) ⁠

46:05⁠ – What’s My Meditation Practice? It Changes Daily ⁠

47:03⁠ – When Seeking Falls Away ⁠

48:00⁠ – Don’t Force-Feed Awakening: Many Called, Few Chosen ⁠

49:00⁠ – Energy Grounding & Chakra Work ⁠

51:03⁠ – The Brutal Side of Awakening ⁠

51:26⁠ – Apple Watches & Fitness (Curveball Question) ⁠

52:32⁠ – What Is “The Story” vs. Reality? ⁠

54:53⁠ – Closing: This Beautiful Satsang

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