What happens when the mind stops telling stories? We explore insomnia and radical acceptance, the trap of identifying as awareness, why “the world is waking up” is just another story, and my journey from Doc Vader to whatever the f**k this is 😂

 

Topics and Timecodes:

0:00 – Going Live & Technical Difficulties

1:26 – When You Can’t Say Anything Anymore

2:31 – Karma Yoga: Life as Sacred Practice

4:14 – Sleep, Insomnia & Radical Acceptance

7:02 – Sleep During Awakening: My Experience

8:38 – Waking Up at Night: Working with Panic & Repressed Emotion 1

0:24 – No Distinction Between Waking, Dreaming & Deep Sleep

11:43 – The Mind Creates Reality: Manifestation & Reconditioning 1

3:29 – Free Will, Determinism & Letting Go 1

3:53 – Dreams, Vivid Experiences & Higher Planes 1

5:00 – When Desire & Attachment Start to Fall Away

16:03 – Meaning Is Created: An Existentialist View

17:01 – Watching Thoughts: The Mirage of the Mind

19:02 – Who Thought This Thought? The House of Cards Collapses 2

1:04 – The “I Want to Wake Up” Trap

21:52 – Who Is Awareness Appearing To?

22:17 – Getting Stuck at “I Am Awareness”

23:04 – What Is the Unborn? 2

5:00 – Wide Angle Camera Fun (Tech Break)

26:04 – The Universe Is Unfolding As It Should

26:31 – Absolute vs. Relative: There’s No Distinction

27:25 – From Doc Vader to This: My Journey Since 2019

30:35 – Burning It All Down: Deleting Twitter, Losing Followers, Finding Joy

31:05 – Gratitude for Spiritual Friends: Angelo, Simon, Ishwar

32:03 – When Suffering Arises After Awakening

33:31 – Resilience Is a Story: Working with Negativity

34:06 – Processing Emotions About Iran & the Ayatollah

36:07 – Letting Things Be Unsticky Even When You Care Fully 3

6:36 – Talking to Conservative Christian Parents About Buddhism

37:28 – All Paths Point to the Same Thing

40:25 – Jesus Was Enlightened

41:13 – Identifying as Awareness vs. Non-Duality: What’s Beyond?

43:05 – Resurrecting Jesus by Adyashanti (Book Recommendation)

43:42 – Is the World Waking Up? (Spoiler: It’s a Story)

46:05 – What’s My Meditation Practice? It Changes Daily

47:03 – When Seeking Falls Away

48:00 – Don’t Force-Feed Awakening: Many Called, Few Chosen

49:00 – Energy Grounding & Chakra Work

51:03 – The Brutal Side of Awakening

51:26 – Apple Watches & Fitness (Curveball Question)

52:32 – What Is “The Story” vs. Reality?

54:53 – Closing: This Beautiful Satsang

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